I love this! It resonates deeply with me as I have come to see and experience the same. The only way I "lose" God is when I pretend I'm living in the past or living in the future instead of the present. It can only happen in my mind, my ego. And yes, it's definitely hell when my mind gets stuck in the past and projected into the future...based on the past! No Presence. No Love. The only safe and sacred place I can also find is to be is here now (easier said than done sometimes!). I've noticed that the only entity I can find not created by God is the human ego, it's created by humans...so no love in it. That's why it's so brutal. Look at the world with all the egos at play. Who I think I am is not who I AM. The present simple tense of the verb "to be" and God's chosen reference to him/herself. I AM. From this understanding, I have been able to access self love and acceptance. I hope that makes sense. Without truly understanding who we are, it's impossible to stop our ego brutalising ourselves and others with it's stories. No wonder we try and numb, drown out and silence it with all manner of addictions. But tt all stops right here, right now in this sacred moment of Presence, and this one and this one. It's a wonderful thing!! Just like the amazing quote Angela posted below "You were within me...but I was outside and it is there that I searched for you". Great post, thank you.
"Late have I loved you, O Beauty ever ancient, ever new, late have I loved you! You were within me, but I was outside, and it was there that I searched for you. In my unloveliness I plunged into the lovely things which you created. You were with me, but I was not with you. Created things kept me from you; yet if they had not been in you they would have not been at all. You called, you shouted, and you broke through my deafness. You flashed, you shone, and you dispelled my blindness. You breathed your fragrance on me; I drew in breath and now I pant for you. I have tasted you, now I hunger and thirst for more. You touched me, and I burned for your peace."
I look forward to reading these every week and always find something new to meditate on and carry into my life. Thank you for your insights, wisdom, and vulnerability.
I love this! It resonates deeply with me as I have come to see and experience the same. The only way I "lose" God is when I pretend I'm living in the past or living in the future instead of the present. It can only happen in my mind, my ego. And yes, it's definitely hell when my mind gets stuck in the past and projected into the future...based on the past! No Presence. No Love. The only safe and sacred place I can also find is to be is here now (easier said than done sometimes!). I've noticed that the only entity I can find not created by God is the human ego, it's created by humans...so no love in it. That's why it's so brutal. Look at the world with all the egos at play. Who I think I am is not who I AM. The present simple tense of the verb "to be" and God's chosen reference to him/herself. I AM. From this understanding, I have been able to access self love and acceptance. I hope that makes sense. Without truly understanding who we are, it's impossible to stop our ego brutalising ourselves and others with it's stories. No wonder we try and numb, drown out and silence it with all manner of addictions. But tt all stops right here, right now in this sacred moment of Presence, and this one and this one. It's a wonderful thing!! Just like the amazing quote Angela posted below "You were within me...but I was outside and it is there that I searched for you". Great post, thank you.
This reminds me of this quote -
"Late have I loved you, O Beauty ever ancient, ever new, late have I loved you! You were within me, but I was outside, and it was there that I searched for you. In my unloveliness I plunged into the lovely things which you created. You were with me, but I was not with you. Created things kept me from you; yet if they had not been in you they would have not been at all. You called, you shouted, and you broke through my deafness. You flashed, you shone, and you dispelled my blindness. You breathed your fragrance on me; I drew in breath and now I pant for you. I have tasted you, now I hunger and thirst for more. You touched me, and I burned for your peace."
- Augustine of Hippo
I look forward to reading these every week and always find something new to meditate on and carry into my life. Thank you for your insights, wisdom, and vulnerability.